Riding My Flaming Unicycle

 When I was in 6th grade we went home for Christmas Break. This was at a time when we still had Christmas break and not Winter Break.  When we returned at the beginning of January my friend Damon Dumas was riding a unicycle that he'd gotten for Christmas. It was the cheap, red, Toys R Us, unicycle but he'd ridden it the 3 blocks to our school and was  demonstrating a certain level of competence. I was a bit jealous and envious and wanted to show him up. I set in to begging and pleading with my mom to get the BEST unicycle out there, The Schwinn with the pneumatic tire and chromed galore! I was very excited and grabbed it with anticipation as I was about to show them all how cool I was! Well, I sucked. It took me about 10 minutes to realize that riding a unicycle was REALLY hard and different. There was no YouTube to find a video to explain how to do it and i was not going to ask anyone for help. There really was no one to ask as Damon had moved and I was stuck with myself...

 Today is the day I write. Right now I do feel like I am riding a flaming unicycle... down hill. And I cant seem to get a break... or brake.  As I wander through trying to get a job I realize that there are bunches of people just like me out there. Some with talent but because of perceived advantage cannot get the chance to shine.  I have applied for jobs that I and others know I would be great at but because I am not woke and a social justice warrior I am not given the chance. So it would seem at this point that culture and conformity are the most important thing. Wokeness has become the blue suit and white shirt of IBM fame. Virtue signaling has become a form of currency much like kids in the play ground bragging to their buddies about some real or imagined conquest. and so the very intolerance they rail against is of it's self intolerant.

 Riding my flaming unicycle So today I have started on my journey. I'm writing a blog to become a book. This is about my personal journey and it will contain pre and post recovery lessons and thoughts. My motivation for this as I am struggling to find my next awesome career. No diploma and being an older white guy makes me less desirable to hire than a younger person as I don't check the boxes for what most are looking for. I feel that it is important to be my authentic self. no amount of virtue signaling will get me where I want to be as I would have to abandon my truth which is regardless of color, ethnicity, gender want good employment is the true equalizer. MLK was tossed from Chicago for wanting to fight for fair pay for white people too. They rejected his attempt to help.